Welcome To My Life

I sit here and wait for anyone to call,
Not so can do anything so I don’t feel alone.
I know that’s what I deserve,
But wish for a life anyway.
Once I had friends more then I ever could count,
As it turns out a had but 3 or 4 that I actually could count on.

I know I sound pety why ask for more,
I should have less but still some come out.
I have met some new friends,
My word how’d I do that?
They all must be fooled I’m a loser at best,
And worst I’m well let’s leave that for awhile.

I sit here type for there’s nothing more to do,
So I sit and I pout and for my time, opps I almost let it slip I’ll save that for later.
So people come and talk acting all friendly like,
But know that’s not them they sit with a jerk.
Pretending I’m worth a damn that must be on crack,
So I sit in my chair as I lean back I see a sight befor my eyes.

A vision so wonderous why is she coming toward me,
Then she stop and she talk asking my name.
There must be something wrong this is me she is seeing,
So I tell her anyway waiting to hear her laugh,
But she smiles instead and asks me to dance.
Now comes the truth I can’t dance worth crap,
But a slow song comes and she holds me close.

I don’t understand how is this happening,
Then she goes to leave I figure ok this is it.
Then turns back around and to drop me her digits,
This is 1 twisted dream I can sure tell you that.
Yet here in the mourning after the number still sits,
So call it for kicks.
I dail the numbers and to my total shock she knows that it’s me and is happly shocked,
So continue to chat with this girl I met.

So when does my lesson come for this is to much bliss,
She’s leaving she says going far, far away.
I think that figures I’m no reason to stay,
Then blows my mind even more asking me to join her.
A trip miles away from any soul who knows me,
This is a seriously messed up trip.
But I figure what the hell pain can only last so long,
After all if it doesn’t work out I can alway fall back on plan #1.

What’s that you ask,
Well let me explain plan #1 might drive some insane.
You see it takes times and skill,
I’ve failed it 5 times but sooner or later even my luck can’t ride.
You see once the plan is correct,
You can never look back or any other direction for that matter.
Your life will come to a halt,
Be it a blade or the weight of time.
Now that, that is a bit more clear,
Let me continue this tale so that you might share.

She set out to go but couldn’t follow,
She doesn’t want commitment just someone to hold.
She not her greatness and sees not her beauty,
But in my eyes any piece of her is worth my whole being.
So when she asks why I sat with her,
She need only read this to know that I love her.

Brad Campbell
July 13/99